Wow how can I already say our boy is two and a half months old! Okay I admit that I actually wanted to write this when he was a month old but hey, one thing you learn when you have a newborn is not everything gets done when you want it done.
The days have been flying by, especially since Hayden has started to sleep through the night! 6-8 hours to be exact! Those first 6 or so weeks though are torture on your body and mind while learning how to handle a newborn on very little sleep. I had a foggy head many many days.
I have felt overwhelmed with love. I have also felt overwhelmed with responsibility. When you choose to breastfeed you are literally chained to the baby (as I am feeding on demand, and some days Hayden demands A LOT). I get to watch my darling husband go to the gym, go to the store and make the big bucks at work. His life, while it has changed drastically, has not changed like mine has and that was not easy at first. I felt some major jealousy when I watched him head off to concerts and out to meet with friends. That being said I could literally stare at Hayden all day and be completely satisfied.
Some days I feel like I am being touched 95% of the day between Hayden, Alex, and Murphy. As someone who really values alone time this was not an easy adjustment. Even though Hayden is the cutest baby I’ve ever laid eyes on some days he just won’t sleep unless he’s in my arms of laying on my chest. Plus there are all the feeding sessions throughout the day. I am definitely spending maybe a little extra time in the shower at night and trying to nap some days when Hayden will go down in his crib.
The other big change in the first weeks was the volume of my little boy’s crying. At first we nicknamed him “squeaks” because he would just make the most adorable noises- now he has this gut wrenching cry that makes me want to cry right along with him. So when Alex can’t calm him it rips my heart out. Of course as soon as he smells his momma he immediately gets quiet. It both melts my heart and puts into perspective how much babies need their moms at the beginning. The weight of that responsibility is heavy and hard some days as I want to spend some time- showering, cooking dinner, cleaning, grocery shopping, and maybe taking a nap. What I want means nothing compared to what he wants and needs. I’m getting more and more used to that as the weeks go by remembering this time when he is this little will go by way too fast.
I have been amazed at how quickly he is changing from one day to the next. I blink and he is already over 11 pounds and 24 inches long . What???? He is getting the cutest chubby cheeks, and gone are the days of skinny chicken legs which are now filled with yummy rolls.
Alex and I are learning more than ever how to work as a team and that makes me more thankful than ever that God gave me Alex to be my teammate, I couldn’t do this without him. He is still learning how to change a diaper quick enough to not get peed on but he is the BEST at getting baby to sleep at night- props for all those walks back and forth down the hallway. Plus he is still taking Murphy man to the park and making sure he isn’t a totally forgotten child.
We are both so in love with this new addition to our family and cannot give him enough kisses during the day. I have been melting into a puddle watching what a sweet dad Alex is. I knew he would be but seeing it in front of my eyes is just on another level!
Hayden’s highlights so far:
- No more jaundice!
- Gaining weight like a champion
- Really enjoys getting baths
- Loves finding our faces
- Getting some serious neck control
- Loves to smile- especially after a good sleep at night
- Making cooing noises that are just the best
- Sleeping through the night!
- Takes a bottle so we have been on a few outings like rugby match and out on our first date as parents
- Rolls! On the legs and arms and delicious chubby cheeks
- Loves to go on walks outside and look at EVERYTHING.